I have heavy meds that I don’t take unless absolutely necessary. This night might be one of them. I have not slept for 3 hours and as my 2:30am clock tells me it is going to be a long night with the amount of pain I am still in.  Today I had my radiation treatment #8 and my stomach has given up digesting and everything is diarrhea. But I could live with that aspect easily, it is the pain in my left hip, where the radiation was administered that is causing the problem.  I feel feverish and have taking as much over the counter meds as possible. I am contemplating what I call the knock out pill.  I know the minute I take this drug, I will no longer be a functioning member of society for a day or two. Is that worth it to me? Or is one night sleep missing acceptable considering it was radiation day. Pain is on level 7 of 10 and making me woozy. I will try to fall asleep one more time before surrendering.