Posted by: cancervisa | April 16, 2008

worried about the my sustainability

Just been informed we have to spend the whole day in the car Saturday to Grandmothers house. This news coming after only 10 days since my radiation treatment.  I guess I should start a new blog about family members who need extra care and you are the nearest relative at 2-3 hours drive away. Long distance relationships are one thing, but long distance care is another.

What has spurred on this last minute event? A longtime family friend called in asking if we could buy my mother in-law bras. My love of my life immediately saw this as a task for me to do. I agreed I probably had more personal knowledge, but it is a personal choice on fit and comfort. The problem is that older women, including my grand mother tend to still wear foundations. This day shall be truly interesting to convert an 80+ year old women out of her tride and true foundation and into something like a sports bra that she can step into and no snaps. Apparently the temporary nursing home nursing staff is not pleased to help assist an old women to the toilet with snaps in the crotch area. (sorry for being so graphic)

But here is my issue of sustainability. If I go 2 hours in a car I am pretty exhausted by the time I get there. Then doing the shop to you drop thing which I just explained I am not fond of anymore. (www.landsend.com is my best friend). Then eat lunch/brunch  while going through the post and other administration like taxes. Of course let’s not forget taking care of the kid. Then get back in the car for 3 hours always more traffic jams to the city. Rush around like a goose trying to get ready for an evening concert, scarfing down a few morsels before we leave. Hoping that in the intermission there is something other than a bonbon to eat at the bar.

The question is, what price will I pay for this world wind tour of a day. Will I not even have the energy to sit while bra testing time is going on? Will there be a place to sit? Will I have no more interest after 5 hours in a car to want to even go to the concert that night? My mother explains it this way, being the good head in the sand person. I see you can function. Therefore I assume you can sustain your functionality. This is probably wrong but functioning is functioning, right? Well not always I explain to her.

I was really frighten by this last radiation treatment and the thought of not ever being able to walk again. So now I am paranoid about set backs since I just had a major one in my book.

I must do another world wind days soon when we go to the USA. Will my family understand or just assume I am functioning?


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