see what a man does not what he says- randy pausch. I too am building safety nets for my child. Because she is an only child she does not need to learn to share unless it is forced on her. I.e. playschool.

But I am also writing a journal and have decided to watercolor a book for her explaing mommy’s sickness.  Like kids who have diabetic parents, they see medical things as giving yourself a needle quite normal.  So when my 3 year old asks why do I have an bohboo. I say that the doctor gives me a very long shot on a big sack and not just in a little tube. She takes in the information and moves on. It is just another form of normalcy for her to see. When she is a bit older, and I am still on life long chemo, I will let her see me attached to a pole with an infusion hanging. Right now I am not so symptomatic so I choose to reveal that part of my sickness to her later. She does not need to see the harsh realities of my life. Not yet, please God, not yet.

I look forward to having a recovery week on the beach with my journal and a puzzle book in my hand. I plan on painting after being inspired by 40 open studios this weekend. I haven’t felt the need to knit, but I plan on going by my favorite wool shop and no doubt I’ll find something that will catch my attention, usually pink in nature.