That my child starts piano lessons as soon as we move grand ma’s piano into the house and that may have to wait until the house in Zwolle sells.

I wish I had Wifi or blue tooth access and to buy a small mini computer, I just saw one with a 2 and a half inch screen. now that is mini. I want  to buy  it for my birthday so that I can blog while I am at the little gym or the ballet waiting room. I have been reduced to knitting or reading a libelle magazine which feels like a waste of a solid hour and a half.

I have never been the kind of person who can just sit.

So I will stop my birthday wish list before I breakdown and cry. Wishing for such things as a longer life, seeing my child graduate from a university or life events such as marriage and grand children.

My mantra, and ultimate birthday wish is staying functional as long as possible, which is my main goal with stage 4 cancer. Stubbing my big left toe has hindered my activity, which does not sound like much to the average person, but it has limited me tremendously. But I will continue to forge through a 10 kilometer walk and practice more patience as we wait out the time until I get a new body scan,  MRI

I wish for my girl that she has a wonderful life with her mother and father as long as God wills and that my husband has a loving relationship with his daughter and I.

Chocolate cake :

20 ml of cold milk

30  gram powdered sugar

150 g butter

225 g flour

30 g cocao

brownie bottom of the cake is above, the rest is the filling

50 g cacao

115 g butter

300  g brown sugar

50 g honey

4 eggs

serves 10 people.  ususally make one small pie pan and th others in a bread pan, any extras becomes individual muffins for easy take with you treats for after ballet or little gym.  Enjoy